FINALLY. after so much of backlog...



about my previous post (below):


I'd been going through one of the toughest times in my life.
when i felt that nothing seemed to be going right.
obviously, it hit home hard for a crazed perfectionist like me.
forever about rules and doing things right.



thus,
regarding geog,
i didn't bring a book and had to bear the consequences.
it's a very convenient reason for many, but stress played a huge part.
when you have to get things done for a major organization on time, in a short amount of time, and every adult you speak to refuses to help you, you'd feel like just falling to your knees and cursing everything. and then, the exhaustion accumulated from the past week hits you again and again.



i went through that.
there were times when i had to calm myself down so rapidly before a test because of a mishap, that i ended up being in a very prolonged state of placidness. lina, oli, thanks for asking about me. and lina for clearing the misunderstanding up.



there was also a bit of trouble,
and i ended up feeling betrayed.
in fact, only that hurt more than the incident itself.

if you guys can't give kindness,
why do you even expect so much of it in the first place?


there was depression and all,
but i got over it.



ANYWAY,
i'm a councillor.
and i picked myself up.


i'm trying to take things one at a time, smiling through it all.


always know what you're worth, and don't let anyone change who you are.
if you can't convince people, let them find out the hard way for themselves.
you're not their parents or something for you to guide them.

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Yesterday,
after authentic learning day,
we had cheer practice.
certain people were not co-operating.
then, because of some personal grudges between two parties.
a friend of mine was quite upset.
spent about an hour after practice cheering her up and calming her down,

in the process,
i was reliving some very bitter memories.
of how badly prejudiced people had been to me in primary school, and the psychological dilemmas and battles i faced. but, by being thick-skinned and ploughing through it, here i am now, unfortunately merciless in my advice, but stone-hearted as well. to some point.

then, I left school with olivia,nikki, sailesh, sandhiya, nivedha and fathin.
i already was thinking of going to the library, then i found out they wanted to too.

but then they wanted to eat first,
so we sat at KFC's roundtable, the one that seats 8 people or so.
I had no idea what came over me.
i wasn't smiling much.
i just sat there and completed my CR while they retarded around.


after that, nikki, sandhiya and sailesh left. so olivia and i went to popular, where i remember getting distressed because I (a)couldn't find the new lily allen album (b)couldn't remember who was the author of The Reader (c)found copies of Vikas Swarup's Q&A (adapted into a movie based on it, which you now know as Slumdog Millionaire) but with two different book jackets.

then, we met fathin and nivedha OUTSIDE the library. i was a bit disappointed when i found out they weren't going inside the library, they only wanted to return books. because if i'd known earlier, i would have bought a mocha frappe and drunk it earlier in KFC. then, fathin and nivedha left, and olivia and i went to the library.

she immediately looked thru the library catalogue for a book by Olivia Kidney (if i'm not wrong) whereas i looked for the author of The Reader and if whether the novel adaptation of Slumdog Millionaire was available. took me ages to find the shelf with the call number, but i picked up some pretty good books along the way. can't wait to read the book by Kiran D.

After waiting for me to pick up my books, Olivia and I left the library. As we were reaching the escalator landing of level 1, we saw Lina and her friends. Oli wanted to talk to her, so we did. Then, (haha) we went back to Popular to buy materials for class cheer, then we went to McCafe.
We talked, and laughed. I also got to drink a Mocha Frappe, which was dusted with cocoa powder on one side of the whipped cream, and drizzled with caramel sauce (at my request!) on the other side. weeeeee

then, i made arrangements to meet mum and shop for sushi/snacks/whatever. walked with lina and oli, they left for their own way, while Mum and I went to shop.
I reached home only at 9-ish! because, you lose track of time shopping for all the gourmet stuff that you don't get in NTUC. and i also bought a grey shrug for myself.

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today,
we went to East Coast beach for beach-cleaning as well as the second part of our activities for Authentic Learning Day, which was yesterday.

Seriously,
the hours yesterday were much longer!
i guess time doesn't fly when you're NOT having fun...
duh.
but still, i don't think it was that substantial.
i could see that they were telling us to do the same things repeatedly so that they would get into our heads.
yes they did, but we remembered them for all the wrong reasons!
for causing us boredom, and stilling time.



as for BEACH-CLEANING,


I'VE HONESTLY NEVER BEEN THIS HAPPY IN A LONG TIME.
i wasn't behaving like i usually did, prim and proper and goal-oriented.
because i was at a beach, for god's sake!


but yes,
i enjoyed myself.
soaked my shoes on purpose thrice.
learnt new things about photography (have taken to shooting pictures from the ground now.)
i posed like crazy with lina, oli, fathin, aqilah, sailesh. but lina especially, because we like to spoof people's expressions and mannerisms.
haha, she said she likes my camera, lol.

experienced the anguish of beachcleaners, who clean up rubbish on the beach under the sweltering morning sun.

exercised teamwork,
but i helped to document the pulling of this weird, anchor-like thing.


at first, i was involved in digging the sand out from under the booty, then i turned to taking pictures and videographing the efforts of my classmates. refer to class blog in about a WEEK!




pictures will be posted soon.
i have to add watermarks. ahem. for fear of lack of acknowledgement.



tomorrow,
there's e-learning day,
which means like nearly six hours of completing online assignment without much freedom.
wowee.
then cheer practice at oli's house.
not sure i can really make it, but at least i won't have to meet up at BB Mrt station like the rest, cos i know where oli lives,and anyway i live pretty close to her.


haha,
i know i will have to wake up at almost the usual time tomorrow, but at least i can eat a leisurely breakfast before comfortably settling my bum into the seat and writing like crazy for e-learning.


oh well.
gotta get my fix of sardine-filled currypuffs.


eldds seniors!
for god's sake, hurry back from the dairy farm!


love,