Some people have too much nerve. Too much ego. They get blinded to the things around them. And they get caught up, believing the wrong people, the wrong things.


I'm quite disgusted at how much of a sadist this year has brought out in me. Honestly, I don't have the habit of ill-wishing people. I just believe in karma is all.


If you know me well (and it's not a large number of you), I'm pretty much a what-you-see-is-what-you-get person. Anger is very much an exception. I rarely hide my feelings, and even if I have to, at a later point they show through some way. I dont see the point in hiding your feelings and then saying something you don't mean. Why say it all? I've learnt my lesson with a few friends, and now, I feel it's harder for me to trust someone like that. Whatever the reason for hiding their feelings may be.



I'm happy that finally, some people have decided to bloody well come clean with their feelings. *Even if it's online, and they think I'm not reading it!* Oh, and it warms the cockles of my heart to know I've been reduced to a pronoun.


Seriously? Stupid? Not bad? Give me a bleeding break. Obviously I meant to be rude, I'm not going to be nice forever and let you walk over me, am I? Yep, I was trembling, but from sadness or sheer surprise I'm not sure. And it is good to know you got what you deserved, because I did, for being patient. It was the classiest thing I could do, instead of composing a lengthy essay peppered with every insult possible, which in turn, IS NOT CLASSY AT ALL, and thus doesn't show the difference between us.


I sat and reflected for awhile, and I felt a weight upon my chest, but ironically, a sense of something being lifted off my shoulders. Relief.


Trust is just so damn hard to come by.





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