I guess it's easy to get caught up in your emotions when there are too many setbacks bombarding you in every direction. Sometimes I stone and get to a place where I practically dwell on those thoughts, and I give some of the greatest sighs ever, and my heart sinks. I frown, setting the stage for wrinkles.








And then I say inwardly,"Gowri, shut the hell up and stop thinking about it," but the thoughts keep recurring. And even when I manage to shut them out, the wounds never completely heal.





Being someone who never really had true friends in primary school, I know how to treasure friendship. And so it hurts me when certain people don't really believe in the bond that I have with them, and choose not to speak with me for months, leaving me puzzled as to why.























That's why I've had to cut some ties this year. Of course it's sad, because some of those friends were people whom I'd spent some of the happiest occasions with, had the deepest conversations with, worked with, laughed with, had meals with, consoled, and practically spent a lot of time with. All that's changed now. Some, despite me giving them a shoulder to cry on and helping them achieve things in school they normally wouldn't have, now give me the cold shoulder, and frankly, that sort of treatment, be it towards ANYONE, makes me want to shake their shoulders, and tell them, never to forget where they came from, and who was responsible for their success, if I could call it that.







I guess none of them treasure all of it as much as I did? All that I can say is that I'm never going to know.


And I'm going to leave it that, because in life, some things REALLY are lost causes.



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